losing my sanity

2009-01-23T20:16:00.003+08:00

Cant wait to get to Kak Z's! Yeeha!

We are all done with you

2009-01-23T02:57:00.003+08:00

Ive been in silence for soo long. I took in every words and actions they did to me without saying anything. But recently, Ive came to a point that why should I shut my mouth wherelse they just wont stop. So I thought maybe when I confronted her, it would make her stop. Well, I was wrong obviously. After a whole lot of considerations and discussions, I decided to hand this matter to the authorities. I just hope that the truth will prevail because I believe in karma.

Only God can judge me

2009-01-22T02:47:00.006+08:00

Abg: FUCK THEM LAH! Sekolah bodoh, jage pantat orang je. Look where are you now and where are they now. How old is she?
Me: One 1 year younger, the other 2 years younger.
Abg: Where are they now? Hows their results?
Me: One retaking her 'N', the other not schooling anymore because she failed her 'N'.
Abg: See. In the end education speaks up for you and its the only thing you can use against them.

That convo makes me feel better. And the fact that they can say whatever they want to say doesnt make any differences of God's judgement of me is okay by me. But i figured all this has to stop, so actions will be taken and youll receive it one fine day.

Thanks Mama, Abang, Akmal, Hanisah, Ijad and Kak Z for being there for me.

And by the way, jangan nak exagerrate ah cb! We all wont tell you anything cause we dont trust you and that this is all just an act. You think you might know things, but you actaully dont. What is a catalyst? So just shut up and open up your book. Try to make it through this time okay? I know you cant beat my 6 points for 'N' Reading my blog every chance that you get, to know whats happening in my life......? Two words for you : Pathetic loser!

This is the nicest i can go.

2009-01-21T20:30:00.002+08:00

Im not rich, but my parents are. But i dont think that would make any differences right? I can get money without having to work. Emm... Unlike you? BTW, got your 'N' level cert yet? If not, 'N' level pun tak boleh pass. Macam mana ya? Like HELLO, this is 2009! Where can you go with your PSLE cert? Im waiting for tomorrow, be it outside school or at your house or at Suntec basement like we planned. Okay. I checked my BMI, but funny thing is that im not fat at all. Not even come close to overweight. But i dont know about those whose weight is 89 kg or something lah. This is what Kak Z said to me, "You should be flattered that you got all these attention," Trust me Kak Z, its soo godamn hard being in the spotlight every freaking time. So just wait for me kay, cause im waiting for you. :)

I havent moved on OR youre the one havent?

2009-01-21T15:52:00.003+08:00

Ive moved on and never talked about you at all. I swear. But when you talk things about me over and over and over again, what do u expect me to do? Shut up? We all know im not that kind of person and when i shut up, i really didnt talk about you. Why should i talk about you anyway right? You were never my concern. Nothing about you interests me AT ALL. Like youre a freak, psycho, manipulative bitch and stuff. So whats the point of giving you my fucking attention right? You might think that i dont know what you told everyone about me, but i do, I need to talk to you face to face and stop all these shits. Be it if i have to go to you beloved cousin or whatever to make things clear. So just wait for the moment and when you hear or see me, dont run off or whatever okay nafatsah? Because i figured you wont shut the hell up even when i let you go. So might as well i hunt you down right? I know youre reading this, so just be prepared. Call whoever you want, cause i really want to tell then the truth.

Goodies

2009-01-21T15:43:00.002+08:00

These are the things Akmal paid for me. Super super happy. Yesterday Akmal and I went to Wheelock to collect my fathers watch that we sent few months ago. So we decided to walk around town to look at things. So I decided to go Tangs first cause that’s my favourite place and also because I have their membership card. As we all Singaporean knows that the first thing that we see when we enter Tangs is MAC. And I got all excited because I heard a lot of reviews about the foundations and concealers. So i went in the store and i feel so damn lucky that i got a very nice lady who serves me. I have to admit that all the other MAC artists are quite minah and arrogant. Maybe yesterday was my lucky day. And when i told her i wanted to get something that is natural but yet conceal my blemishes, she gave me 2 products. One is the Select SPF 15 and the other is the Studio Fix or something. I cant remember. She applied both on either half of my face to make me see the differences. In the end i chose the Select SPF 15 because it gave the natural look and it has this dewy look that i love.

Then at Sephora, i got all crazy and wanting to buy everything. But i ended up buying the mesh sponge and Sephora brand Milky makeup remover. So i walked out of town with a smiley face. And btw, the leopard print scarf i bought it from Aishah. Go to her LJ

That’s not ALL! Just now i woke up very early. About 11 am. After 5 mins, the door bell goes off. I don't have to ask who that was. I dashed to the door and there he is! The Mr. Postman from my BeneFit spree that i joined! Yay!

My brother said i am jakoon. But whatever. Even my mother got all excited. Hahaha. Okay. That's all. :)

2009-01-20T14:37:00.000+08:00

Faris Shafiq, tolong jangan nak kepo and stop irritating me for my results okay?! Pakcik kepo #1 in Singapore ah lu.

Akmal

2009-01-20T02:04:00.001+08:00

FUCK YOU AKMAL FOR MAKING CANT GO TO SLEEP! FUCK YOU FUCKING BLOODY RETARDED IDIOTIC SHALLOW PSYCHOTIC ASSHOLE! I FUCKING WANT MY FREAKING SONY ERICSSON HANDPHONE THAT YOU FUCKING PROMISED TO GET ME AND THE BLOODY SAUSAGE MCMUFFIN WITH EGG BREAKFAST YOU PROMISED YOULL GIVE ME IN FREAKING 8 HOURS TIME! I FUCKING FREAKING WANT MY STUFF THAT YOU PROMISED ME! I DONT FUCKING GIVE A FREAKING SHIT!

FUCK YOU AKMAL!

Red Ear

2009-01-20T00:49:00.002+08:00

Sleeps at 4am. Wakes up at 1pm. Thats my daily routine for the past 1 and the half month. Mama and Kak Z had been bugging me to sleep as early as possible. I cant, but i tried. So one night, i slept at 2 am and woke up at 10 am. Okay, thats one achievement right....? That night however, i slept at 7 AM! So i stopped trying and only sleep when i feel like it. I wonder whether thats the reason why im having breakouts right now...? Speaking of which, im going to a dermatologist tomorrow or Wednesday to check whether i have allergies or skin problems that require special care....
Anyway, my day is a little bleak except that i watched Twilight for the FIFTH time! Hahaha. Some people i know watched it more than i do, so dont say im crazy or whatever. Everything went well except the last part when Akmal fucking hit my ears with his gigantic hands that made me couldnt hear for a few seconds. And thats not all, he fucking left me at Bugis MRT after the argument! I was damn pissed off! I AM still damn pissed off! So if youre reading this now Akmal, go suck your own cock and die lah! CB!
Okay, lets put that aside and talk about something else. Hmmm.... See, because of you i cant fucking think properly! Idiot!

Hairy Situation

2009-01-18T15:40:00.001+08:00

I swear im in love with Miranda Kerr’s hair. I think im gonna go for her hair colour but i dont know whether it suits me or not… Hmmm….

Revised Wish List

2009-01-17T15:40:00.001+08:00

Things i want and will buy and must get.

Wish List

2009-01-17T00:59:00.005+08:00

Blast From The Past

2009-01-15T02:26:00.001+08:00

Old School

Emotions

2009-01-14T01:48:00.001+08:00

Lost, Confused, Angry, Dissapointed, Frustrated, Scared, Tired..
Thats what im feeling right now.

Damn You 'O' Levels

2009-01-12T11:34:00.002+08:00

Okay, i swear im feeling something NOW. Of all times, NOW! I didnt get to sleep till the sun comes up again; couldnt think and most importantly, i dont feel like collecting my results. Are we all allowed to do that? Please let me know because i might come up with something that is more serious like jump out of the window or something dramatic.
I seriously dont know what im worrying/ thinking about the most. Him(!) or it? Kak Z said Akmal chose the best time to distract me. Id say, he chose the right time to kill me. I just hope by the end of the day, everything will be okay. But knowing him and me, nothing is okay. Oh well, just hope for the best. As Kak Z said, theres soo many surprises today. Expect the unexpected. And frankly right now, i dont know what to expect.

Im fucking nervous, can you tell?

I AM Something Unignorable.

2009-01-10T14:06:00.004+08:00

Im really upset with hotmail nowadays. Its becoming stupid and retarded each day. It cant open my mail, i cant get to junk mails and elsewhere! Big ass mother fucker! So now im using gmail and yahoo. But MSN Messenger is damn cool lah! Im impressed with the latest program seriously. They have themes and it looks technologic. Hahaha.

So the big day for me is in two freaking days. And my armpit cant stop sweating. Let the countdown begin!

By the way Akmal, this is for you.

Where The Hell Is Mr.Postman?!

2009-01-08T12:58:00.003+08:00

I ordered a few things online from BenefitCosmetics.com few months ago. But till today, I still havent receive the goods. My mother has been bugging me. Kept asking is this website for real or just a fake one which is after our money. Later when I checked which is 3 days after Christmas, they said its a holiday seasons so the delivery might take some time to reach here. Meaning to say, theres a delay! My God!! Sick, sick, sick people i tell you.... Damn irritating.

Anyway, my online shop is open for business. I provide bikinis, inspired designer bags and bracelets.

So please, spread the word and come visit my shop. All you have to do is click on the icon on your left that has helloboysntoys. Thank yall!

You Set My Soul Alight

2009-01-07T14:48:00.001+08:00

Okay, say whatever you want to say. But i watched Twilight trice and thats still not enough!

Pet Society Addict

2009-01-07T00:19:00.002+08:00

Damn you Nanda Usman for turning me into a Facebook addict and obviously a Pet Society addict!

Adopt-A-Bear NOW!

2009-01-05T00:31:00.003+08:00

I bought this thing on 31st December 2008. Its very special to me cause ive been wanting it for sooo long. And when i finally got it, its really something! So here it is........

It even comes with a certificate!How cool is that?! Anyway, i named it rusty cause it looks....emmm... Well... Rusty. I dont know what got me. But i just feel like naming it Rusty. At first i wanted to make it a girl teddy, but after looking at it, it suits being a boy teddy. So i dressed him up with a Build-A-Bear uniform cause it matches the shoes. And whoever are close with me knows i LOVE those kind of shoes. So thats the reason why i chose it. Thats not all! The teddy bear even has a HEARTBEAT! I know it sound scary, but i just find it cool. First, they fill in your bear with wool. Then they give you this heart thing and you have to put it on your palm and wish whatever the bear will do to you. If you want a heartbeat for the bear, you can choose the heartbeat button. But they have ALL sorts of buttons. They have a birthday song button and lots more. After all that, you have to puff the teddys fur and youre all set to choose an outfit for your teddy. Some people think that teddy bears are just for kids. But i think this teddy is suitable for teenagers. Its like a Barbie except that it doesnt make you feel like you have a small boobs or worst, FAT. Besides that, everybody knows that teddy bears are like a 2nd pillow. Its soft and most importantly cute. Where else Barbie is hard and sexy. Dont get me wrong though, i love Barbie. What makes you think i choose this name for my site? Anyway, my point of posting an entry on this is to encourage teenagers to buy or more to say adopt these teddies from Build-A-Bear. And by the way, did i mention that you need to take a pledge soon after you pay for the teddies you made? Yeah. The teddies are THAT cool. So get yours NOW!

Love & Miss

2009-01-04T12:22:00.002+08:00

I Miss

I Love

Oh yeah, Hot like a sauna!

2009-01-03T17:57:00.005+08:00

The contractors just left my house. What Kak Z said about me going to miss my brother when he starts working is godamn true! Usually my brother will stay at home if i said i want to go out. But now that he has gone back to work, I have to wait till the contractors went off THEN i can go out. Wahloa!

As usual, didnt do much but just stare at the computer screen all day long. Sometimes i wonder how in the world i can do that. I guess i have that special abilty to star at it for 15 hours without a break. Anyway, updated my online shop. So do check it out!

And people, Im sooo going to The Ting Tings Concert ont the 13th of January! WOOOOHOOOO!
Okay toodes! Im going out.

Flat bum

2009-01-03T01:29:00.002+08:00

Usually on the 2nd of January, Ill always start my entries with "I hate first days" but ths year, not anymore. It sure sounds very fun not to go to school like everyone else on the 2nd of January, but only God knows how terribly worried I am while waiting for my O level results. Seriously, I dont know what to expect. Just hope I can make it..to anywhere. Aside from that, I have to admit that I really enjoy my holidays this time. I trully made full use of it. Such as going to bed only after 3am, waking up after 1pm, going out without having anyone telling me what time I should be home, face the computer for 15 hours, start my own small business(yeah right!) and soo much more. However, theres just one thing that I didnt do to really show i made full use of the holidays. I didnt get myself a job. Frankly speaking, I feel hopeless when people kept asking me whether i got myself a job yet or not. Its not that I didnt try to look for one, its just that its godamn frustrating being rejected each time I applied for a job. Other than that, I also cant think of a reason why I should get a job in the first place. Its like what do i need the money for? My father pay the bills, my brother buy me things and my mother gives me money. Dont get me wrong. Im not bragging or anything, its just that I dont get it why people kept pestering me to get myself a job. Just to make the matter rest, I applied a job at Build-A-Bear. Actually I didnt apply this job because I wanted to sut people up, I just find it interesting to work in those kind of surrounding. I might never make that as my profession, so i thought maybe I should just give it a try. For experiences benefit.

Speaking of which, when Akmal started working I feel kind of lonely. I just realised that everyone is working except me. Even my brother started working just now. Now Im left all alone without anyone to talk to. Wahlao! Build-A-Bear,call me cepat-cepat okay...? Youre my only hope to cheer me up now.

Akmal, gue kangen banget sama lhoe.

Twilight

2008-12-21T17:26:00.002+08:00

I watched Twilight on Saturday morning and hasnt got the chance to blog about it. I think its super super great. But the book is definately better. And i swear to God, ive never seen soo many gorgeous people in one movie. The cast are ALL godamn beautiful except for Charlie that is. Im soo gonna watch it again and soo getting the DVD.

Oh, and 1 more thing.

EDWARD CULLEN, BITE ME!

Neither a spoilt nor a brat

2008-12-21T00:36:00.002+08:00

Im now surfing the net to find those things im planning to buy. My mother said, im allowed to buy a designer bag and a jewelry. So now im on a mission to find THE item for myself. And at the same time, my mother kept asking me which course im getting into after my 'O' level results. Frankly, i wanna go MDIS. Hahahaha. My brother will SCREAM at me if he knows what is in my mind.

'N' 'O'

2008-12-18T23:48:00.002+08:00

So the 'N' level results weas out just now. Most of the people i know didnt do quite well but im sure i did well for my 'N' To me, 'N' is very easy. To tell you the truth, i started to slack few weeks before the papers. I started off the year being very hard working, but after awhile i started to become lazy and adopt this heck-care-dont-care attitude. I wanted to say luckily, but mother always says that these kind of things you cant depend on luck. So im gonna say thank God i got 6 points for my best 3 subjects. Which is Malay, Maths and English. 1, 2, 3 respectively. But i got to say that doesnt happen easily. I had to work my ass off the begining of the year to get those points. I wasnt there to collect my results and i depended on Mr. Zaldy to update me with my results. And so i waited and waited and waited. Until the 5th day, he messaged me and said "welcome to 5/2" I was like whaaaaaaaaaaaaat! Then after that he sent me my points and stuff. As we all know, i was at Aceh then. So we celebrated by going to A&W and had (what me and my mother labelled) formalin ice-cream. I swear its too chewy. So anyway, to those who made it to secondary 5, best wishes to yall. And to those who didnt, what were you thinking???? N level is godamn easy paper! Just go to ITE. Its a better choice rather than repeating. Its not the end. Trust me.
My 'O' level results will be released next month. I hope luck is by my side.

Sneakers looking fresh to death

2008-12-18T13:52:00.003+08:00

Famous for being a two-faced bitch that is....

Anyway, nothing much happened except that my father promised me that he's getting me a car right after i get my licence. :))

2008-12-17T00:54:00.002+08:00

Papa is going off in 4 hours time and still we are all not sleeping yet. Im pretty sure im gonna miss him. Not the moolah, but him.

Guys are jerkos!

If i have ALL the money in the world..........

2008-12-15T14:54:00.004+08:00

A full boot

2008-12-14T23:38:00.004+08:00

Can you imagine? We step out of the house at 10:30 am and reach back home at 11 pm. Crazy man. First we went to the tiles warehouse for the kitchen renovation, then we head down to DFS. This is where it starts to get interesting. This is THE bag my father bought my mother just now. It definately cost a bomb and i dont think my mother will use it that often. She said i can use it if i want to, but seriously, i dont think she'll let me use it just like that. With a 4 digit number on the price tag, borrowing from her wont be that easy. Anyway, after we buy the bag, we got ourself a $40 voucher. My father thought of buying a Hugo wallet with it, but unfortunately, its only valid for the cosmetic products. So mama bought a YSL eyebrow pencil and i bought an Anna sui lipstick.

So all of us walk out of DFS with a smiley face except for abang because he didnt buy anything. haha. After that, we head down to Courts and buy refrigerator, cooking set and stuff. At Ikea, we didnt really buy soo many things because we are all exhausted. And i am too now.

Live your life

2008-12-14T00:34:00.004+08:00

Is that a white flag youre waving? Oh well, as childish as i can be, im fucking 18 and bloody legal. To some people age is just a number, but seriously, lu masih anak-anak abu ah girl... Belum kene bikin, takmo banyak bebual ah. Lu mana punya big fuck nak threaten aku? You wanna fucking spill the bean, spill it then. Jangan sampai aku dapat tau kau buat mulut pasal aku. Kau siap kan badan je ah.

Seriously, youre a fucked up kid. Live with it. Dont fucking tell me whether im right or wrong. You said your friends know you? Well, i guess they havent come to a point where they get to know the REAL you. Youre a type of person who will fucking do ANYTHING to cover your godamn ass. Be it if it involves lying, backstabbing or anything. Come on lah, how far can you go? In the end, the truth will be revealed right? It has to surface right? And im sorry im the one that has to bring it up.

And by the way, mulut aku macam jubo ayam? Kau confirm ke confuse joy? Setahu aku, dahi kau ade chap MULUT JUBO AYAM? Tkde eh? Then it should be the word WORLD ah tu... Please ah. Look yourself in the mirror and see whether youre any better. If not, suck your fathers small dick sua lah. :)

p/s: If anything happens to me, whether the cause is from your fucking godamn mouth or not, ill fucking make sure i hunt you down. You just fucking mark my words ok? Go!

Good night people! Love ya! Fuck Naf Naf!

i love these kind of stuff.

2008-12-12T12:40:00.004+08:00

wow wow wee! exciting habis.... so youve been reading my blog lah ni? stalker sia! cb! hahaha. well, all i can say is that, they are all faster than you. by now, they already know everything. anyway, trash for all you want lah. all i know is that you can just come up with a very stupid story that doesnt match to save your ass. i know everyone has a problem with me, and thats why im ignoring them all. which is absolutely not like you. eventhough you know people doenst like you, you still hang around.

n fyi, ive already moved on. just wanted to set the record straight. thats all. because knowing you, youll just spread lame rumours. so jangan stress2, jangan step besar babe. nampak kat luar, jangan lari2. kalau tak happy, settle then and there. i'd be glad to do that.

2008-12-12T11:08:00.001+08:00

chuck and blair

2008-12-11T14:13:00.002+08:00

season 2, episode 13

how could you , chuck bass?

Nongsa Point

2008-12-09T09:34:00.004+08:00

So now im at Nongsa Point's lobby waiting for mama and papa to go for breakfast. So i figured while waiting i should just try out their wireless facility. Its slow, but okay though. Better than nothing right....? I thought of uploading a few pictures i took of the resort, but i forgot to bring the memory card reader and im just plain lazy to go back to the room and take it.

But i have some pictures of the superb Indonesia magazine i bought few days ago. The magazine is fantabulous! I cant get my hands of it! And God damn it! Its damn bloody cheap! Their stuff that are featured are DAMN BLOODY CHEAP! I, Fitriana, is definatley going Jakarta next year. :)

See it for yourself.

YAY!

2008-12-06T23:22:00.000+08:00

Im going to Escape Theme Pak today.

2008-12-05T13:01:00.001+08:00

Betseyville is the shiz!

2008-12-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

Im soo damn bloody fucking HAPPY! I went out with Kak Z just now to town and i got myself a bag! Its original price is actually $200 but its on 50% discount so its $100! So i immediately called my dad and asked if it would be okay to buy the bag, he said yes. The reason why im sooo god damn happy is because its a fucking Betseyville bag. YAY!!!!! Ive always wanted ti own a Betseyville bag, now i have one an i cant be happier. :))

How lucky am i man.....

Last but not least, i pimped Kak Zs car keychain with Swarovski crystals. Im quite proud of myself as for a first timer, i did pretty well. Not just pretty well, i did superbly. ? Is there even such a word?

Mak kau kecoh ah Kal....

2008-12-02T17:43:00.000+08:00

Mak kau macam Amy Search.

I want a Balenciaga bag!

2008-12-01T10:21:00.002+08:00

So Akmals birthday is coming and i dont know what to do. Throw him a party at Macdonald or get him an iPod touch. I seriously think a birthday party at Mac would be fun and cute but Kak Z kept telling me that we are all too old for Mac parties and it will be a little bit awkward. And the iPod touch, my mother kept telling me that its not worth giving him something that he might not need. If i give him cash, that would be too makcik makcik and if i give him clothes, that would make us look/sound like a married couple. I hate this man... Cracking my head open just to think of a birthday present. Maybe a month before my birthday, i should make a wish list for everyone so they dont have to go through this kind of thing. Besides, they will confirm buy me things that i like and avoid things that i dislike.

The reason why im talking about this early in the morning because its Kak Zs birthday and that reminds me of Akmals birthday. For Kak Z, i bought her an Elle quilt cover set. Kak Z LOVES quilt covers. So i thought, why not.... Other that quilt covers, she loves Tag Heuer watches and i cant afford that! Maybe one day when i get a paycheque, ill get her that. One day.

Anyway, i think i need to go shopping today. I want a Balenciaga bag. :( Not fair! How come my mother can have 1 and i cant?!

2008-11-30T19:19:00.001+08:00

I WANT SHISHA. AND SUBWAY. AND TAKOYAKI. :(

ciggarette-smelled finger tips

2008-11-30T18:15:00.003+08:00

Changed my blogskin layout. I think its nice cause its simple. I love simple, clean layouts. Maybe should change concept the next time im changing my layout.

A pocketful of sunshine.

2008-11-29T22:10:00.004+08:00

Say hello to my new baby.
Eventhough its not a Macbook, Im still grateful mu parents trust me enough to buy me a lappie. So my next goal is to own Mazda 2. Sesungguhnya im a girl who gets whatever she wants. Unlike you! Haha.

2008-11-28T08:09:00.000+08:00

Carousel is fully booked till end of december. WTH!

Boredom just killed me.

2008-11-26T00:28:00.001+08:00

Bored abes... Confirm go to Kak Z's tomorrow. CONFIRM!

I need you to be with me now.

2008-11-25T23:02:00.001+08:00

Im not satisfied!

2008-11-25T02:14:00.004+08:00

i dont know why, i really like living with Kak Z. So went out with Papa, Mama and Kak Z to town. My parents freaking bought a WMF set and my father bought a luggage and i didnt buy anything. ANYTHING! Actually i only bought a Twilight book, Driving basic theory book and Sohie Kinsella's Remember me? book. Thats all! And an Esprit towel. Yeah. Basically thats about it. I wanted to buy a jeans at Zara, but my mother kept complaining that she needs to pray and all so i gave in and didnt buy anything cause im a very fussy shopper. So Papa gave me 200 bucks to buy my jeans. But im still not happy with the amount of money. Maybe i should ask him to go out with me one of these days without my mother so i can buy anything that i want. Okay, i guess that settles all.

Anyway, i miss Farzana and Insyirah and Liyana. We used to go out soo often that we just dont know wherelse to go except town. I guess now that we are all busy with our own lives that we just dont have the time to actually pick up the phone and call each other. I just hope they wont forget me.

Screw you, small kiddo!

2008-11-21T19:20:00.002+08:00

Okay, heres the thing. I tried to be nice to everyone, but it seems that they wanna play rough. Ive been keeping quiet throughout and kept thinking that youre just a minor and thats why i keep my mouth shut and not reveal the fucking real you. But you fucking left me with no fucking choice but to actually tell those people that doesnt know the whole story the real godamn truth.

To Nafisah Abdul Aziz, if you actually have a problem with me, you can always say it straight in my face you know? Have no guts? I bet you dont! Youre just a plain fucking liar! Remember during your birthday? You said Firman, Aishah all attended your stupid lame party? Well, we checked and NON OF THEM WERE EVEN AWARE THAT YOURE HAVING A FUCKING PARTY! Kau tau tak that youve been labelled World by almost all of the boys? You might think that everyone is laughing with you, but actually theyre fucking laughing AT you! Hows that?! You can consider yourself lucky that i didnt fucking trash you in front of your friends.

JUST FOR THE RECORD, I IGNORED YOU, NOT BECAUSE OF AKMAL, BUT BECAUSE YOURE A FUCKING LIAR AND A HYPOCRITE THAT I FEEL ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!

NAFISAH ABDUL AZIZ, GET A LIFE! YOURE LIVING IN AN IMAGINARY WORLD. SHOULD GET YOURSELF BACK INTO REALITY. I BET YOU CANT HANDLE THE REALITY THAT YOURE A FUCKING PATHETIC GIRL!

And btw, why did you force Akmal and Saiful to fucking kiss you? What a loser!

Say whatever you wanna say people, but thats the fact. Judge me for all i care. Seriously!

Till then. You know you love me baby. XOXO.

DADA IS BACK!

2008-11-21T18:55:00.002+08:00

Btw, Im soo damn bloody happy today. My father just came back from work after 4 months leaving us. So we all went to airport to fetch him. And i tell you, my brother's car is so small that it's damn hard for us to even put in my father's luggage in the boot. Then after fetching him, we went to T3 to send Kak Fizah and her family off to Jakarta. They'll be there for holiday till Wednesday. After that, we head down to Sempang for a meal. We went to Sedap Corner. The food is deliciouso. But i still think it would be better if we all go Pondok Jawa Timur. Speaking of which, God i miss REAL Indonesia food. mama said we'll be going Batam this Hari Raya Haji and gonna surprise Kak Zaidah there. Im excited Cause the currency is damn fucking fabulous! The last time i went Indonesia, it was 6500. Now, its freaking 7400! Cant fucking WAIT!
Anyway, my father bought me Vera Wang Princess, Chanel No. 5 for mama and Davidoff Adventure for abang. How cool is that! And while he's away, he bought fucking 3 handphones! My daddy totally change! From a person who would only go on the net to check Forbes' list or the football results to a techno whiz! Me and my brother are soo proud of him. He doesnt only own N96, N79 and E71, he even owns a a Sony Vaio laptop! The latest one that my brother has been eyeing on! My God! He really shocked us all.

Okay... Thats a long entry. Well, got to go! Im trying to figure out how to use an E series phone. Im praying and hoping that my father will be such a darling and lend me his phone. Or even give it to me. Oh, whatever. Kak Z, if youre reading this, IM NOT SPOILT! Its just that im a daddys girl. Okay fine..... Its just that my parents love me. Including my brother. Im just not a spolit brat!

2008-11-21T18:21:00.001+08:00

Im proud of Britney now.

2008-11-21T11:45:00.000+08:00

Everything will be alright.

2008-11-19T16:05:00.002+08:00

I swear i feel like stuffing socks in Miley Cyrus' mouth when she sings in here but overall they are all GREAT! I seriously think this sing helps lift those cancer people's spirit. I personally know a person who have lung cancer who never smoke, she's actually very close to Lala. The first time Lala told me about it, my heart sank and im really proud of Lala that he actually can face the fact that the closest person to him has this kind of sickness. And im proud of him that he can still lift his head up high and not let this stop him from doing anything. Akmal, ill help you get through this ok.... We are all praying for your mother to recover.

2008-11-17T20:21:00.002+08:00

My brother is getting married! 16th May 2009! I'm soo damn bloody excited!
So I went to Carousel just now. The food is good. But not as good as at International Family whatever whatever. Went there with kak Z, Syadiq, Izzat and Nadja. It was fun. But now I'm having heart burn. Kept burping like a toad.

Lovey Dovey

2008-11-09T01:11:00.002+08:00

WAHLAO!GANTENG BANGET!

Btw, Happy First Year Baby Boo! I LOVE YOU!

2008-11-01T12:50:00.003+08:00

Happy Halloween!

2008-10-28T09:24:00.001+08:00

everyone is helping me with my art paper two.
my goooooooooood im soo damn spolit.

General Cambridge Examination 'Ordinary'

2008-10-12T17:45:00.003+08:00

fucking GCE 'O' starts in 4 days.

love

2008-10-08T12:29:00.001+08:00

11th.

stupid stupid stupid stupid cupid

2008-10-08T12:21:00.001+08:00

stupid boy go jalan raya and he didnt message me. stupid boy is stupid indeed! :)

this is my favourite Hari Raya Song

2008-10-05T21:39:00.000+08:00

Minta Mahap Ye....

2008-10-02T13:08:00.000+08:00

vivitar ultra wide and slim.

2008-09-27T22:30:00.004+08:00

2008-09-27T10:26:00.000+08:00

web cam

2008-09-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

cb! nak step sapau je.

padahal nipple kecik.

2008-09-21T13:04:00.001+08:00

can you handle the real me?

eventhough..........

2008-09-17T07:38:00.002+08:00

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

this upin and ipin keeps me entertain.

godamnit!

2008-09-14T21:46:00.001+08:00

i hate you, but i love you.

how?

aint karma a bitch? we know blair waldorf is.

2008-09-02T22:17:00.001+08:00

GOSSIP GIRL SEASON 2 IS UP!

i kissed a girl, and i hope my boyfriend dont mind it.

2008-09-02T21:02:00.004+08:00

so i bought myself a melissa neon in purple, but i swear it looks dark blue to me. eventhough its made outta plastic, its surprisingly comfortable! i think i might wear it to town or what.

and today also, i collected my jelly gladiator that i bought from one of the shops at haji lane. im sooo damn HAPPY! ive been wanting this jelly gladiator for soo long. i found it once at river island, but its in shocking pink. its nice and cheaper than mine but its hard to match with outfits.

2008-08-24T19:17:00.002+08:00

TADAAAA!my first attempt.

fighting for peace is like fucking for virginity

2008-08-24T12:05:00.003+08:00

my mastercard is really killing me.

flickr.

2008-08-10T14:09:00.001+08:00

this dude is cool.

Happy Birthday Singapore!

2008-08-09T11:58:00.002+08:00

yesterday i became the mad girl at topshop raffles. as we all know, topshop is having 50% sale. so me and akmal went crazy. i bought 2 ruffled shirt that i always wanted for $24 each, patent sling bag for $29, 2 braided bracelet for $6 each, a wayfarer for $23 and akmal bought a check hobo shirt for $39. sooo many things, less than 100 bucks! power or what??????????!!!!!!!!!!! im just soo damn happy that i got soo many stuff and i cant wait to wear ALL of them! :) im a taurus. what do you expect?

are they cool or what??

2008-08-09T10:02:00.009+08:00

but my favourite would be this one.

happy family

2008-08-08T10:38:00.001+08:00

my #1s

try me, ill bite your head off!

2008-07-30T21:01:00.003+08:00

i swear to God, stop being such an ass if you dont want me to haunt you down. stop acting as if you know everything and being such a bias mother fucker. listening to one side and condemning the other side doesnt make you a wise guy. if youre really a brave ass to actually jugde me, ask me straight so there wouldnt be any "cold war". be a man if you are one. if you dont think you got the balls, then be a pussy and leave me alone. frankly, youre just a piece of shit and you wouldnt affect me AT ALL. the only thing that youll bring me is fame. everyone will be talking about me, they will remember me. but in the end, theyll forget you. youre just a back seat driver. get your facts right! so if youre really brave and wanna stand up for the person that youre protecting, confront me face to face. but before that, just pray that you wont get a blue black eyes afterwards. with that, i would like to thank you for making me famous.

Saturday, stepping into the club
The music makes me wanna tell the DJ, tune it up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well, I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me do
The things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand
Why would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life (but not the way you want me to)

[chorus]
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Here we are, back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (what)

I've gotta say respectfully
I would love it if you would take the cameras off of me
Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me do
The things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life (but not the way you want me to)

[chorus]
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind (my mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)

I'm tired of rumors (rumors)
Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)
What they want of me
Why can't they (they, they, they, they, they) let me live
Take this for just what it is

[chorus] ×2
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live (live)
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

jakarta jakarta.

2008-07-27T10:22:00.002+08:00

check this out!
maybe i should migrate to jakarta instead so i can wear whatever i want without people judging me or looking at me strangely. :)

2008-07-27T00:27:00.001+08:00

i dont know why, but i miss lala so much that i cried before falling asleep.

wear your heart on your sleeve.

2008-07-26T15:47:00.001+08:00

how i wish this can happen in reality. especially to me.

please say okay.

2008-07-25T21:31:00.001+08:00

lala, we go to butter factory after your case is being dropped okay?

the 7th that i like.

2008-07-23T19:09:00.002+08:00

lala sooo damn cute and sweet you know. this is what he messaged me just now.

im falling sick. kepala berat sia. macam kena cocok ah rasa. i think its because i miss you. :(

2008-07-20T09:56:00.002+08:00

went to this particular course mama send me and akmal yesterday. its called youth rabbani. its quite okay. i managed not to fall asleep. its at geylang lorong 37. and i swear its damn hard to find that lororng. its after lororng 42. wth right.... so after that, lala and i went to meet mama and had our dinner at victory. then head back home. i skipped madrasah today cause im damn lazy. god i hate to go madrasah!
so today, we have another 4 hours session. just hope we'll benefit from it and lala will reduce his smaking so i can get a 500m sperm contained boyfriend. :D

to whom it may concern

2008-07-18T13:59:00.002+08:00

hey bitch, lets make things clear shall we? first of all, you have no right to judge either me or my boyfriend. second of all, i think you should mind your own business cause your life is pretty much fucked up than mine. why i said that? cause youre not schooling anymore. 'N' level je tak pass, let alone of taking private 'O'. to make things simple, beat me in 'N' levels which i got 6 points then you can say whatever you want about me. so what if i get into a fight with that bugger, at least im smarter than you. senang kata, sejahat-jahat aku, ada otak jugak. tak macam kau. ite pun tak boleh masuk, nak cakap banyak.

anyway, who the fuck are you wanna judge me? you gave you the authority, huh WOMEN? were you even there to say that my boyfriend hit her? were you even from the school still to kepo about all these? stop bugging my life just because its damn interesting. why dont you just play with your hair or help your mother with the cooking instead since you have nothing else to do. girl, im warning you to stop critising me and my boyfriend. and right now, the least you could do is get your facts right... get it? do i make myself clear? crystal clear bitch?

2008-07-13T16:13:00.001+08:00

stupid trojan. cb!

love

2008-07-08T10:54:00.000+08:00

8th

2008-07-07T12:24:00.002+08:00

so i used my brothers laptop today cause the family computer is down. blame me lah. im the one whogot the trojan in there. itchy hands cant stop me from clicking everything.
so mama went online and i send her this. eventhough i always give her headaches and heartaches, she'll always be there for me no matter what. be it whether i have bgr problems, friends problem, father problems or studies problem. she'll put her work aside to be there for me and damn those who think shes a lousy mother. damn those who think shes not doing her job as a mother. if you wana say those things, say it straight to my face and we'll see how you'll eat for the next few months. ill make sure youll eat by using straw or worst, not eating at all. mess with my mother, youre messing with your own life. so think before opening your mouth. you might never know youre digging your own grave. if you think im going to be soft, think again. :)

haters make me popular yall

2008-07-06T21:11:00.004+08:00

were you guys even there to understand the whole situation and the whole story? i dont think so. if you werent there, then why should you give your comments on it, right? why even bother about my life wherelse i didnt even bother you guys? be it if you find me a loser or what, but the thing is that who are you to judge and do you even know what cause all this and whats the aftermath? if your answer is no, shame on you cause whatever that you label me is now on you. just give the devil his due. thet truth, will always be the truth. so yeah, i dont care lah. i dont need your sympathy anyway. better off being alone rather than surrounded by people like you. if you know what i mean.

abeh kalau mulut bau tayar lorry camne? :) i think you better go to the dentist lah.

tick tick boom

2008-07-06T19:16:00.002+08:00

yesterday spent the whole day with kak z. had pizza at her place. then we to vivo and ehub. had some dessert at new york new york. i swear the chocolate fondue sucks lah. soo the bitter. taste like shit, i swear. before that went to meet lala for awhile to pass him his food that mama got him from batam. at last! he got to taste the delicouso martabak manis is soo damn sinful that NO ONE can resist it. it contains chocolate and some other ingredients that are not soo important. hahahha. so yeah. went home around 7. talked on the phone with lala from 730 to 1030.

basically, i have nothing interesting to say so i just talk about random stuff. anyway, did i mention that i didnt go out today cause i dont feel like it not that lala didnt ask me out? so yeah. thats about it all. :)

soo long and goodnight.

2008-07-03T19:33:00.002+08:00

i miss you real bad. but i guess thats how it should be right......................?

"i nak kawin, phantom escort kita"

2008-07-01T19:20:00.001+08:00

hahahahahahhahahhahahahahaha.

i hate it when you make me miss you real bad.

2008-06-30T19:57:00.004+08:00

okay im home alone now. damn it! abang said that he'll be home afternoon, then when i reach home at 5, NOBODY is at home! damn it! shouldve asked lala to come over. then nobody will get caught by their father sitting at the void deck with his girlfriend in his arms. hahahah. see lala, i told you not to hang around at your area. :D

i hate it when lala's prepaid is low. i cant call him and he cant fucking message me. and i hate the fact that that makes me miss him. this song reminds me of him.

i wanna add something! as i was reading my friends archive, i found this. hahaahhahhaha. this was in 2003. CLASSIC!

random

2008-06-30T18:05:00.005+08:00

they call me hell,they call me stacy,they call me her. thats not my name.

2008-06-26T20:47:00.002+08:00

akmal, play takraw for all i care lah. dont worry, i wont complain anymore since its your favourite hobby now. im going to bed. :)

this is an emergency

2008-06-25T19:08:00.002+08:00

so i skipped school just now. only the third day of school, im skipping school already. went to kak mizahs place to sleep. then at 12 i walked to pasir ris to meet lala,wan and zai. we hang out. wan went off first cause he had to go to his grandparents. then haikel joined us. then blablabla. ok. obviously im lazy to update the details. got home at 6. and now preparing to go to kak wahidas for math. yay! maths nite! weeee! my favourite.

i know that you know im not fond of asking.

2008-06-24T20:30:00.003+08:00

school had never been this tiring. this term, soon after the second last period ill get tired and restless. im not kidding. call me lembik, but thats the truth.

anyway, using mozilla now. hahhaaahhaha. im kental, i know. so now im just crazy downloading and trying stuff they provide for mozilla users. i have to admit that im quite dumb with all these kinda stuff. but at least i wanna try and explore right rather than being like those stupid buggers who didnt even try things but instead just critise on things. what am i talking about also i dont know.

think in to tired lah. havent sleep the entire day, i think thats why been talking craps.

went to town with mama just now. bought bras and stuff. so now i have to study for social studies and maths. woooohooooooooooo! I FUCKING LOVE MATH AND I DONT CARE IF PEOPLE WANNA LABEL ME AS NERD CAUSE I DONT GIVE A SHIT! what the hell!

ive never been like this before. seriously. full of shit. and damn random.

lala has been acting weird. wouldnt message me unless i message him. and he seldom replies too. oh what the hell. i dont give a shit! do whatever you want. i have my own life too lah!

what tthe hell did i just said???????/
buhbye!!!!!!

already hating it.

2008-06-23T20:26:00.001+08:00

i hate first days. especially this one.

blog underconstruction. please understand that things are quite all over the place right now. so yeah. be patient.

nicole to the richie

2008-06-22T21:23:00.003+08:00

just got home from various places. lala and i went to town to get my bag, then to boat quay, esplanade, marina. then 2-ed,7-ed and mrt-ed home. yeah. kecoh babe.

and now abang is discussing with papa and mama about his upcoming wedding. and got, that sounds sooo damn funny. i dont know what to say lah eh.. as long as hes happy and wont disturb me and lala anymore, its okay with me. its obvious now that my brother is quite unhappy with my relationship with lala. i think hes just worried that this year im taking Os and all. so yeah. mama is fine with lala, dada just cant be bothered and abang is trying to adapt to the situation that his little sister is seeing someone right now.

oh gOd! i want scarves like this one. i missed the damn spree. i need it asap. anyone who has it, please let me know. i wanna buy it. god i love nicole richie.

gonna fuck up your ego

2008-06-22T12:27:00.000+08:00

sepak dia punya dahi, berjoget nanti.

2008-06-21T21:03:00.002+08:00

suddenly, i want an oxford shoe. :D and lala didnt allow me to get one cause he thinks that its too high heels and i would get tired easily. yeah, my boyfriend is a mak nenek and wise.

laleeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2008-06-20T19:54:00.006+08:00

went to pasir ris beach again.

buhbyeeeeeeee